I took several psychology classes in college, though I never minored in it. One of the things we learned in Psych 102 was that small stressors can be just as bad as large stressors, since they have a cumulative effect.
I was thinking about that this past week because I had several small disappointments this month.
I was hoping to get a facial and go for afternoon tea during a few days off I had, but I did not get the chance to either.
I was hoping to go to the theater, but we had to skip because of the weather.
Perhaps saddest of all, I was really hoping I could take my mom to see The Cleveland Orchestra perform Rhapsody in Blue. She loves Rhapsody in Blue.
Oh well, I am taking her to hear Bruckner, whoever that is, so it’s not a total loss. Plus, I realize that my disappointments are the epitome of “first world problems” so I can’t bitch too much.
At the same time, it is strange how a series of small disappointments can have a cumulative affect about how I view myself and the world. When things go my way, I assume that they will continue to go my way. When I am disappointed, I start to feel unlucky. I also become less likely to take chances or to fight back when the world does not go my way.
In the meantime, here is a performance of Rhapsody in Blue, with Leonard Bernstein and the New York Philharmonic no less!