Meditation on Irrational Thoughts Part 7

The idea that you will find it easier to avoid facing many of life’s difficulties and self-responsibilities than to undertake some rewarding forms of self-discipline.


I read this as I sit on the couch, instead of exercising.  And a day after I saw my nutritionist, and saw that I had gained 5 pounds.

I feel that very much in those areas.  But I also feel that in other words.

A few months ago I thought that I would spend a few hours every week writing.  I did it one day.  But I decided that the writing sucked, and I became discouraged and gave up.  Granted, I also had a whole bunch of other things in my head, particularly grief for a lost pet and fears of my health, but even so.  I just gave up.

That is part of the reason that I worked so long at my previous job.  I wanted to prove to myself that I wasn’t a quitter.

I have to admit, I do think that it is easier to just give up, to sit on the couch and scroll through Twitter and watch YouTube videos than to exercise.  That just seems hard.  Worse, cooking healthy meals seems hard.  Well, specifically, going to the grocery store seems hard.

I know people who are really into fitness.  That just seems so hard.  Does it really become easier the more you do it?  Does it really become easier to eat healthy and exercise the more you do it?  Conversely, does it become harder to sit on the couch or eat junk food the less you do it?

So, am I going to exercise tonight?  Or at least go for a walk and take photos while I do that?  Maybe.  Maybe.


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