The idea that you must have a high degree of order or certainty to feel comfortable.
This is really meaningful right now.
I am writing this a few hours before Ohio officially goes on lockdown through April 6th, though we all expect that those will be extended. I have been working from home for over a week.
even more upsetting, I am listening to Pod Save America’s latest episode. Nurses are describing how they are rationing PPE and N95 masks. One nurse has to reuse her masks 5 times.
When I originally copied this link, I could never have even imagined living with this level of uncertainty. I worry about my 97 year old grandmother and my parents in their late 60’s. I even worry about myself, though as a woman in my mid 30’s the odds are in my favor.
So, in this time of unimaginable certainty, how can I be comfortabe?
Well, I am focusing on the things that I can control. I follow the social distancing rules and work on hobbies, such as this blog and knitting.
I am also learning to accept the things that I cannot control.
Moreover, I think about how this experience is not new. Disease has played a powerful, but strangely forgotten, role in human history. I may not survive, but humanity will survive.
And after the Black Death, comes the Renaissance.